Beginnings.

Well i am in my second semester of my first year at Northwestern College...WOW. I don't really know what to say because I'm in such an odd place. I really enjoy Northwestern and feel [as far as I know] led to stay here this semester but today I'm hungry for more. I'm hungry for more of God. I don't know what that looks like but I know it is important to say it. It's important that I wait on God in this season that I am in. I feel so squirmy right now!!!! But So far I have been seeing that this semester is really about learning to follow God and depend on him in a deeper way. I am hungry to be led. And let me tell you this is quite the awkward "dance" I am in. I am hungry to know God more and walk every day with Him. I am NOT satisfied with just having fun or just going to college. I think this is what people call the waiting period.

"I lift up my eyes to you,to you whose throne is in heaven. As the eyes of slaves look to the hand of their master,as the eyes of a maid look to the hand of her mistress,so our eyes look to the LORD our God,till he shows us his mercy." - psalm 123:1-2
"Our Soul waits for the Lord, He is our help and our shield. For our heart is glad in Him, because we trust in His holy name. Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you." - Psalm 33:20-22
"And you have not delivered me into the hand of the enemy; you have set my feet in a broad place... But i trust in you, O Lord; I say,"You are my God." My times are in your hand...Oh, how abundant is your goodness which you have stored up for those who fear you" - Psalms 31:8,14&15,19
"...but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace."-Romans 8:6b
"But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." - Romans 5:8

^^ The truth I hold on to right now [in my weakness] is that God is going to lead me wherever I need to be. That He loves me, a sinner, and that He is with me always.
My soul waits for God. This is very new for me because as much as I have made decisions based on what I felt would be pleasing to God, I was doing it to "get it right," God is really freeing me from this and has brought me to repentence, but i believe there is more freedom to come as I wait on Him. I believe freedom is listening to His voice rather than living under the pressure to be perfect. I know this is His perfect timing for all of this so I will rest in Him in My desperation.
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