"And from His fullness we have ALL received grace upon grace." - John 1:16
It will have been two months that I have been student teaching on March 15th. It has went by incredibly fast, and I have grown mentally, emotionally and spiritually in ways I never thought I would. Right now I am home for my spring break. I italicized this, because this break is and will be filled with mountains of studying.
It is scary and exciting to think that in a little more than two months I graduate college. The reality of this major event in my life is actually beginning to feel real. Can I just tell you how relieving, and at the same time daunting this feels?! Graduating college feels like it's something for "big kids," and well I don't feel like a "big kid." ha. "Well, kiddo, you are and life is just going to keep moving," is what I think would be fitting to tell myself at this point.
Life. Does. Not. Stop.
The clock continues to tick, seasons change, babies are born, others are lost, and each day the sun sets and rises. That sounds kind of depressing, but that's not my purpose in writing this. If life keeps going, I want to as well. I want to be present in each moment, because that is where the Lord is. I believe that's where I see all that He is doing (well...all he chooses to show me).
I think that when college graduation comes around, grad. candidates feel pressure to keep moving in a pressure-filled way. I know that I do. There's this unspoken rule that one needs to accomplish something just as great, if not greater, than the four years of studying at a college. So doing something that would seem to fit into the "college years" category doesn't satisfy. So many of my good friends have told me that life after graduation is very hard. I wonder if that pressure to fulfill all the dreams one had in college once they graduate has made that season of life hard. I'm unsure, and really it could be a number of things that make it hard.
Life after graduation doesn't need to look a certain way. It just gets to be what it is, and dreams get to be dreams. They get to be pursued without pressure. Passions get to be ignited in unexpected and expected ways. Desires get to be fulfilled, yet not. In the midst of it ALL, God is still God and is always good.
"You're the ground that doesn't shake
You're the branch that doesn't break
You're the light that never fades
and You're holding on
There's never been a time
You've ever left my side
You're love never dies
and You're holding on"
- Lindsay McCaul
"Hold on to Me"
