"Then the word of the LORD came to me: 5"Thus says the LORD, the God of Israel: Like these good figs, so I will regard as good the exiles from Judah,whom I have sent away from this place to the land of the Chaldeans. 6I will set my eyes on them for good, and I will bring them back to this land. I will build them up, and not tear them down;I will plant them, and not uproot them. 7 I will give them a heart to know that I am the LORD,)"> and they shall be my people and I will be their God, for they shall return to me with their whole heart." - Jeremiah 24: 4-7
So I'm here at Northwestern college and i've been here for a while now, but recently it has really sunk in! That's besides the point of this blog, but I think it explains why I have decided to "dig into" blogging again. So prior to coming to NWC God had told me that I was going on a 3 year- no dating covenant with him...basically I am dating Jesus!! And Basically I feel led to write about this over the next 3 years.
God has been showing me over these past few weeks that I am his beloved. He has been romancing me like crazy and being quite obvious. He really doesn't want me to miss this one. And i don't really want to either. Even when I stray away from him, he gently brings me back and shows me that he LOVES me so MUCH. I can't even begin to describe the fullness of God that I have felt in my heart, and this fullness reminds me that i MUST keep my eyes LOCKED on Jesus. When i am in that posture of obedience, that's all i really want!! I want to see Jesus...God I just want to see you. Like this hunger is unbelievable and it just keeps multiplying.
But this doesn't eliminate my sin or a need to die to myself every day, but when i know the grace of God, i can come to him in total repentence and joy..knowing he's forgiven me..that's it, that's final. I am an heir of God and i get to live like it, i am NOT a dog, so i won't eat my own puke... [i hope that makes sense to all]
I am so incredibly excited to jump into my saviors arms, so what's the wait for? Um...it's me, God is waiting on me..just to do it! And i know that my heart is so ready that if any distraction gets in the way i will jump into the arms of another. So I have to be that focused, I have to keep the "floaties" on and i jump. Not because God doesn't have me, but because I am new at this, no loving father pushes their child into the water for the first time without some protective device...psh are you kidding me?! So As my father has been showing me, He is a good dad, a dad who will provide for me, a dad that loves me abundently, one that never lets go.
ahhh.. i am humbled, i am in awe...and I always need to be reminded of who God is..every day. He is my everything!!! So Lord, I abandon everything else...i lay it down and give you full reign. Be my Lover,
Jamie
