I was having lunch with some friends yesterday and one of my friends said something that is i think i am finding to be so true. She said that the more we keep on this course of following God it seems that we have to go back to the simple things.
Some things that I think I am understanding more [inch by inch] are God's grace and knowing that this life is ALL about one relationship; the one relationship being with Christ and Me, Christ and you, etc. It is the one thing that has so much opposition. But I know that it is what we all were created for!
As this year has progressed I look back, even to this past week and find that God has been passionately pursuing me. Seriously God has been pursuing me so much...it's crazy. But it is an obvious reminder that I seek God not with "the door closed" but with Him knocking at my door. He is always knocking and finding the most beautiful ways of doing so.
And yet because of my sin, and sinful habits I so easily become blinded to his wooing me. I don't take time to let his pursuing me sink in because I am moving so fast. Mostly because I view my relationship/life with God as if I am knocking on his door and maybe if I knock hard enough he will let me in. Oh no no no, this is not the case.
Something another one of my friends told me is that because Jesus is the author and perfecter of her faith even before she had her faith there is not a lot to worry about...I like that way of looking at it. In that I am being reminded that it is not what I do that gets me where God wants me. He is doing it all. He slowly asks me to come. [Matthew 11:28-30]
My hope and prayer is that I would understand my deep need and desire for God. I know he is going to show me. He is faithful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDARLX6P8ZI
Oh and by the way - I only have 4 weeks left of my first year of college...holy crap! It's funny because over the past two or three weeks i have been asked how i feel about the year almost being done and my answer is relieved! For some reason I celebrate that answer...maybe because it is honest...hmm i don't know but I am. One thing i do know - every day I have been at NWC is an adventure and I know that these next four weeks won't be any different. I want to be open to whatever God wants to do in the next month.
-Jamie
