This weekend I decided to go home for a few different reasons. The two weeks prior to coming home I was extremely busy. Everything that I could have on plate was put there -- I mean EVERYTHING. Going from class, to hall event, to group project, to a hall retreat, to duty for RAing, to another hall event to another class and to another group project and so on. To top all of that off we had Knuha Day last Thursday night and on the same night I decided that I am not going to be an RA next year. On that Friday I went home with a really good friend of mine. We took my boyfriends car and I drove home! For those of you that know me, you know that driving has been some what of a challenge for me. So this was a big accomplishment =). Throughout the weekend I got to spend a lot of time with my friend and It just encouraged me so much. Seeing how she has grown and how God is just molding her and changing her and giving her more hunger for Him inspires me. During this time at home I also gave blood for a part of my doctors appointment. Also once again this is a big thing for me because I am afraid of pain and especially pain in the form of a needle being stuck into my arm. Well it was fine AND i did it all by myself - no one went with me! I am proud! I guess there is just so much that I have going on in my life and so much I could write about.
The thing that inspired me to blog I think is a combination of my human relations class, diverse learners class, placements, future volunteer hours and hearing from other people's hearts. From all of these experiences I am seeing that this world is so much bigger than my little life. There are people hurting and I don't have the answers or ways to relate with them. As much as I want to say that I know what to say to those that have went through things I haven't - I just don't right now. I think I feel this realization that we have a big world. There is so much going on and as busy as I am I know that everything I am learning about is teaching me about the diversity of our big world. If you asked me 10 years ago that I'd be where I'm at I wouldn't think so. But I'm just really seeing that right now - that I am small, that I don't have the answers and that there are people that are hurting.
[this isn't to depress anyone, I think it's just to see the obviousness of our world and how there is greater purpose in our lives]
Today my Christian Theology professor quoted a verse in Isaiah 43:7 that talks about how we are created for God's glory and therefore we have purpose. What's running through my mind right now is what does that look like to live for God's glory? And it also gives me a lot of hope - that we have purpose, that we were not mistakes but purposefully created.
Yeah - those are my thoughts.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Healing Begins
So last night was Knuha day - for those of you who don't know what it is i don't feel like explaining it right now but basically in part of it each hall makes up a dance and performs it...this has been a crazy time in my hall because we have been so busy working on the dance and just with life!
BUT we won!! woohoo no but really i am so proud of my hall..i love those girls. I'm glad its over because i am tired. But i just love dancing..i can express my heart in a way that is inexpressible otherwise. okay that is all for now.
back to my busy life
BUT we won!! woohoo no but really i am so proud of my hall..i love those girls. I'm glad its over because i am tired. But i just love dancing..i can express my heart in a way that is inexpressible otherwise. okay that is all for now.
back to my busy life
Monday, February 7, 2011
A great Saturday!
So, I haven't really been blogging because honestly it's not the healthiest thing for me to look at everyone else's blogs with where I am at in my life; the benefits do not out way the torment that starts to spin...
BUT, since I no longer have a facebook I just really wanted to share my Saturday because it was great..haha.
Okay so Clark and I have officially been dating for 6 MONTHS. That is crazy! Let me tell you it has been an adventure. When I said yes to dating him I did not think that it would be so...life changing? Yeah I think that is what it has been. There is this verse in Psalm 33 [my new favorite bible verse] that says something like God frustrates the people's plans. And all I can say is that I think that is what Jesus has been doing in my life and it's not bad. but growing up out of my brokenness I had my idea of "more and better life." I think that it made God really sad because my picture of "more and better life" is actually destruction. This is true. But I think that I get to choose to see that God is SO faithful that He decided to frustrate my plans.
So Saturday was our 6 month and I told Clark that he got to pick what we got to do. Which was me letting go of control and expectations. Not very easy. We ended up going to this iceskating place at centennial park in Edina,MN. Which is SO pretty. The skating rink is just a frozen lake but it is a really long lake and has walking bridges over it. And when it gets darker there are Christmas lights on the trees. There is also an inside room with a fire place and hot chocolate. FUN! It was great. And then we went to Loring Pasta Bar. Woah baby it was fancy. I got this chicken ravioli and it was yummy and fancy..haha. And Clark got tortellini. Yum yum. They had a live band there and this yummy bread with this fancy butter. It was sweet. After that we were just going to go back to his car but we found this book store that is two levels. In there are all these old books; like really big German bibles and this book that Martin Luther wrote that has latches on it! Okay...I don't know why but I just think that is so cool. Just seeing bits of history makes it come alive. And I think that I could probably just look at the books forever. I'm kind of a book lover. Call me a nerd...it's okay.
Well, that was my Saturday. Life is still hard, looking back it's so much easier to see God's hand than in the moment but today has been good. Today's been good! okay just had to say that twice. I am once again doing my placements for education at a hmong school. I'm still doing the education program and I don't really think I will switch unless God makes another path really clear. I have some really amazing education teachers that have a HUGE heart for teaching, which makes it exciting. I think though I have too much going on, I'm REALLY busy. I applied to be an RA next year but we will see what happens. I've thought about working in the campus ministries office in our school so that i can help out more with chapel..It sounds like something I would like. Our school is building a new building and we are getting new meal plans. Haha that is kinda fun but i don't know if everyone likes it. Um also they might change the time for chapel - that'd be wierd. I have the hiccups...
Okay you are updated with my life in all that ways that I'd care to share.
adios
BUT, since I no longer have a facebook I just really wanted to share my Saturday because it was great..haha.
Okay so Clark and I have officially been dating for 6 MONTHS. That is crazy! Let me tell you it has been an adventure. When I said yes to dating him I did not think that it would be so...life changing? Yeah I think that is what it has been. There is this verse in Psalm 33 [my new favorite bible verse] that says something like God frustrates the people's plans. And all I can say is that I think that is what Jesus has been doing in my life and it's not bad. but growing up out of my brokenness I had my idea of "more and better life." I think that it made God really sad because my picture of "more and better life" is actually destruction. This is true. But I think that I get to choose to see that God is SO faithful that He decided to frustrate my plans.
So Saturday was our 6 month and I told Clark that he got to pick what we got to do. Which was me letting go of control and expectations. Not very easy. We ended up going to this iceskating place at centennial park in Edina,MN. Which is SO pretty. The skating rink is just a frozen lake but it is a really long lake and has walking bridges over it. And when it gets darker there are Christmas lights on the trees. There is also an inside room with a fire place and hot chocolate. FUN! It was great. And then we went to Loring Pasta Bar. Woah baby it was fancy. I got this chicken ravioli and it was yummy and fancy..haha. And Clark got tortellini. Yum yum. They had a live band there and this yummy bread with this fancy butter. It was sweet. After that we were just going to go back to his car but we found this book store that is two levels. In there are all these old books; like really big German bibles and this book that Martin Luther wrote that has latches on it! Okay...I don't know why but I just think that is so cool. Just seeing bits of history makes it come alive. And I think that I could probably just look at the books forever. I'm kind of a book lover. Call me a nerd...it's okay.
Well, that was my Saturday. Life is still hard, looking back it's so much easier to see God's hand than in the moment but today has been good. Today's been good! okay just had to say that twice. I am once again doing my placements for education at a hmong school. I'm still doing the education program and I don't really think I will switch unless God makes another path really clear. I have some really amazing education teachers that have a HUGE heart for teaching, which makes it exciting. I think though I have too much going on, I'm REALLY busy. I applied to be an RA next year but we will see what happens. I've thought about working in the campus ministries office in our school so that i can help out more with chapel..It sounds like something I would like. Our school is building a new building and we are getting new meal plans. Haha that is kinda fun but i don't know if everyone likes it. Um also they might change the time for chapel - that'd be wierd. I have the hiccups...
Okay you are updated with my life in all that ways that I'd care to share.
adios
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